Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Day 9 ...

So, I'm kind of stressed. Yeah, I know, I've mentioned it before. I have work stress, I have teenage dram-o-rama stress.....what parent of teens doesn't? Well, today, I'm going for a hearing test as I've lost a lot of the hearing in my right ear over the past 2 years - enough that if I sleep on my left side I sometimes don't hear my alarm. Alarming! After the hearing test, I'm going for a consult with the surgeon.....what I'm stressed about is what he's going to tell me. My mother and her mother (and now my younger sister possibly) all have/had profound hearing loss....inoperable hearing loss. Degenerative hearing loss....my mother has lost 80% of her hearing in one side and 70% on the other.

Workouts! I worked out 4 out of 7 days last week and went for a walk on one other day. My trainer has had me doing drop sets.....wow is all I can say - I can do THAT? Really? I never dreamed.....but I'm doing it....and I have the sore leg muscles to prove it. We've started focusing a bit more on upper body work as well.....and I'm doing my homework - abs at home!

Eating - well, I've been eating clean for 8 full days (except for the pancakes of course).....and, well, likely TMI, but I'm sure I'm not alone out there....um, my metabolism is sluggish. I've had this problem on and off for years - oh, so does my mom and my other sis (gotta love genetics?!)....so I did what my sis suggested and bought a container of Benefibre..........waiting!

Still 17DDieting

B - 2 eggs, evoo, peppers, onions
S - yogurt and berries
L - chicken breast and roast veggies
S - yogurt
D - not sure yet

Water....gallons of it!

Today working on making it through a gazillion meetings and then off to hear/listen to what the doc has to say!

Friday, February 24, 2012

Day 5 - and inspired!

I just read a very inspiring blog - Heather's story can be found here. Thank you Helen for suggesting reading it!

I too have found that through starts and stops for so many years on what I originally thought was a weight-loss journey, that's really the whole package - an entire lifestyle change.

Not sure if I've ever written this before, and maybe I can find some photos sometime to share with you. I wasn't always heavy. In fact I was underweight for most of my life - until after my first daughter was born. Which meant that I spent 30+ years of my life being active, when I felt like it, eating well, again when I felt like it, because no matter what I ate or did, I was always underweight.

Reality now is that through stress of raising kids, getting divorced, working full time while balancing life on the farm with a blended family, well, I have never come first and my bad eating habits, along with slower metabolism, have won.....I am doing everything I can NOW to adapt to a new lifestyle.

Added to this, the love of my life quit smoking 13 weeks and 5 days ago.....he's been smoking since he was in his late teens and is now 51.........need I say more. He's doing well, but still struggling with cravings, horrible cravings, and is learning, himself, how to handle these.......as a team for the past week, we've both been working together to be more active and to eat healthier. So, basically, this means that this is the first time since I started WW and trying to lose weight 6 or 7 years ago that he's supporting me through his actions. We've agreed that we will be walking in the evenings when the weather allows - other days he's hitting the treadmill at home, and I'm hitting the gym.


One small frustration for me is that I've been on the 17DD for 4 days now and for some reason I've now gained .9 of a lb from where I started on Monday?! excuse me?

So, apparently, Tuesday's pancakes had a BIG impact on me.....and I'm all-the-more focused on getting back and STICKING with clean eating. Today's menu looks like this:

Coffee with half and half and .5tsp sugar (I've reduced it by half)
B - 2 eggs, evoo, tomatoes and green onions
S - yogurt
L - baked veggies with chicken meat balls
S - yogurt and berries
D - not sure yet, but likely fish with grilled veggies

Working out at the gym today after work
Minimum 12 cups of water

Official WI is Monday, so I've got plenty of time to turn this around!

Happy Friday!

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Day 4 and Holding Strong!

Thought I'd caught my stepson's cold this morning when I woke up.....hoping I was wrong - do not have time nor presence of mind to get sick right now!

Day 3 went very well - ate according to plan, didn't get enough water, did my abwork homework - ouch! 100 crunches!

Day 4 -
B - 2 eggs, evoo, peppers, onions
S - yogurt
L - baked veggies and tuna
S - yogurt and berries
D - baked veggies and chicken meatballs

12 cups of water likely...if not more
Going to the gym tonight - upper body workout with some legs thrown in for good measure

Feeling like my energy level is coming back up which is awesome!

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Happy Hump Day!

It's "middle of the week" day! Makes me wonder, though if it's only a four-day work week, which day is really considered the middle? I know for a fact that yesterday was Tuesday, according to the calendar, but quite frankly it certainly felt much more Monday-ish around here.

Last night, I ate almost two pancakes. I didn't need more than that, so I stopped about 3/4 of the way through the last one. End results: I feel fine mentally that I ate them (they were pre-planned), I feel a bit bloated (but that's okay because I stopped when I was full and didn't push to finish them), and I did workout and had a perfect day otherwise on the food/water/exercise front. See, my head is in the right space!

Today Day 3 of the 17 Day Diet and clean eating:

B - 2 eggs, evoo, yellow bell pepper, onion, mushrooms
S - yogurt
L - BAS with tuna
S - yogurt with berries
D - baked veggies with chicken meatballs

Minimum 8 glasses of water (I'm already almost finished #2)
Hair-i-tude Adjustment at 5pm - cannot wait - I'm looking a bit scraggly

....and HOMEWORK! Yes, my trainer has given me homework! So 100 crunches - 5 different types of ab exercises, 20 reps each.

Work is still very, very busy. I'm working on lestening the stress by keeping my head in the right place.

That's it! See you tomorrow :)

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

It's Day 2!

I'm feeling like there is HOPE! with hope comes staying power and with staying power comes success!

Day one of 17DD looked like this (now bear in mind I got up late yesterday):

B - 2 eggs, evoo, mushrooms, peppers, onions

L - none as I ate breakfast at 11am!
S - berries and yogurt
D - bbq'd salmon (garlic/lemon/lime/thai spice) with baked veggies (onions, peppers, broccoli, cauliflower, asparagus, a splash of evoo, and some greek spices)
S - more yogurt

I drank 8+ glasses of lemon water yesterday.
I walked more than 5km with my sweetheart.

Yesterday was a great day!


Back to work today and it's budget season (read stressful and lots of deadlines):
B - 2 eggs, evoo, peppers, shallots, mushrooms
S - yogurt
L - baked chicken breast with BAS (big-@ssed salad!)
S - yogurt and berries (pre-workout)
D - I'm struggling with this - it's Shrove Tuesday - most of my family is Catholic and we ALWAYS do pancake Tuesday for our kids........and my MIL. Hmmmmmm.

8 cups, minimum, of lemon water
Going to the gym to have my @ssets kicked by my trainer - first formal workout in 3 weeks - wish me luck!

Monday, February 20, 2012

Life is Good!

I find myself feeling really gooooood today. It's cold outside, but it's an absolutely gloriously sunny morning out there.

Why am I so happy? Because today is THE day! Yes, today is the day or date that I picked to reboot 17DDieting, commitment to working out, and generally looking after me again. I game myself a week after my latest vacation in Florida to get back into the groove at work, get unpacked, get organized at home.......and I feel so great for having given myself the time to do this. Good plan apparently!

I've been chugging lemon/lime water for 2 days now and it's starting to take away some of the bloat.

My start weight (yesterday) was 168.9. NOT great....but it's a number and I won't let a number dictate who I am. I ate ridiculous foods yesterday - that's okay - and with water and more veggies, I lost .4.

So, I looked back through my journal this morning - I did a half-assed attempt at the 17DD starting last February 28th (that would be 2011). I had no kitchen when I started, so that was a hindrance.....but I managed, with a lot of starts & stops, to get down to 159 by November. So I regained half of it....so what. I have a plan.

Tomorrow - first day back at the gym
Wednesday - hair-i-tude adjustment
Thursday - gym
Friday - treadmill at home
Saturday - not sure yet
Sunday - gym


UPDATE! My wonderful friend and trainer wrote this on FB yesterday....I just found it a few minutes ago.....was she writing this to me? Possibly?! Was she expressing herself? Again, maybe?! It's so good though, so I'm sharing it (hope you don't mind Miss S):

You're right. It's easier to eat pizza then to run on the treadmill. It's easier to turn to ice cream rather than people for supporters. It's easier to say "F*ck it, I give up" then to say "F*ck this, I can do it." So you know what? I'm not going to sit here and try and convince you day after day that you CAN do this. If you don't believe you can, then you can't. That's the honest truth. Believe in yourself, you need to do this for you. If you don't want it bad enough, then you sure as hell won't achieve it. So take the easy way out and remain unhealthy and continue to gain weight because you can't realize you are the only one hurting yourself. I didn't say it would be easy, I said it would be worth it.

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

I'm re-evaluationg...yet again

Call me the proverbial WIP! Yup, still trying to figure out what works for me, what makes me happy, what makes me tick. Sometimes, just when I think I've got it, something comes and derails me......

A different approach I've been taking lately is just to put my head down and plow through it.....not sticking my head in the sand anymore, just working through things. Life does throw crap at you from time to time and all of this stuff tends to build up over time and if you don't address it, it will eventually catch up with you.

My ex's father passed away recently.....my girls had to face the funeral of their grandpa without their mother being there........one of the nasty results of divorce. Don't get me wrong, I've been there for them, they've talked, they've cried......and I've been there. I went out of my comfort zone in the days prior to his passing and went to this hospital to visit him and his wife.....I am so very glad that I did - though it was a sad visit, it was also a healing visit for both my former MIL and myself. We spent over an hour reminiscing about old times......wow. RIP Jonas, you will be missed by so many people who loved you.

So here I sit, on the balcony of our condo in Florida thinking, wishing..........and hoping.