Thought I'd share some of what's in my head right now.
There is a French saying "être bien dans sa peau" - roughly translated "being good in your own skin." I can honestly say that I noticed this morning that I am not at all happy with how I feel in my own skin. The weight and inches I lost has lightened up the fat areas on my body, but now they are loose and giggly. I hate that. HATE IT! I feel like a bowl of jello that hasn't quite set yet. It's ugly. I doesn't look bad in clothing, it's how it feels that I don't like.
I've started really trying to focus on what my body is telling me and letting that being one of they main things that moves me. I started paying more attention to what my body was saying after my Menière's diagnosis and it helps a lot! With the Menière's my worst symptoms are tinitis and dizziness....once I start noticing them (I'm very good about tuning them out), I know I'm pushing limits - too much caffiene, too much processed food, not enough water, not enough sleep.......
Right now, it's saying, time to step back on the clean eating bandwagon, so 17DD here I come again, hopefully tomorrow. I am transitioning to a new job (ie read working two full time jobs until someone is found to replace me in my current one) on Monday, so I am allowing myself to just coast on the workout front right now. I will get back into a good routine, but with so many demands on myself, it's ridiculous for me to even entertain adding another structured activity to my life right now. So I will walk my dog for cardio (and bring my camera when the weather allows it) and get through the next month or so.