I'm Ready!

Took a few months off work on medical leave to deal with Menière's Disease fall-out.....I was starting to get Vertigo attacks and the dizziness was just getting to be too much.  The ENT tells me, cut down on CATS!  Not felines (thankfully, as I have two furry friends), but Caffiene, Alcohol, Tobacco (not an issue) and Stress....yupppp....CHRONIC STRESS.

So, fast forward to today.  I'm back to work, almost full-time (that will come next week), corn season is very much under way and as fun and crazy as ever......so do you see that Stress follows me everywhere?



So, 2012 is the year I get to goal.... That's what I say every January....."insert year X" is the year I get to goal.

Well, I did gain weight last spring.  I managed to get all the way up to 178 lbs again....goooood grief on that one!  I'm down now to somewhere between 167 and 170...depending on the day.  I know that I need to listen to what my body is saying and act accordingly and that's exactly what I'm doing.  I've learned a few things lately - how to walk away from stress and how not to own every single problem that pops up, whether here at the office or on the farm or even at home.  This is a refined skill that needs more work, but I now know how to recognize the warning signs and when to walk away (now if I could just always just do it automatically).

Anyhoo, I would dearly love to get my weight down to somewhere in the mid 140s.....anywhere between 142 and 148 would be lovely!  So, I have 4.5 months left of this year and 20+ lbs to go...totally doable.

Motivation in May

By George, I think I've got it!

Stop the madness!

Enough is Enough!

Pretty much things I've blathered on my blog lately.  Yesterday, I found out my daughter has some health issues - nothing that cannot be managed, but it took the focus off MOI and put it on one of my two lovely girls........and made me realize how many awesome things I have going on in my life and really, that I have little to complain about.

She'll be fine....just working through a few issues with her.

Work is craziness!  Seriously, C*R*A*Z*I*N*E*S*S!  Usually, I thrive in this environment, but with my health issues, worrying about my daughter, and well, I've just let it all pile up and given up on taking care of me.  That is NOT the answer.  NOT!

So, today, once again, is THE first day of the rest of my life.  It's sunny, which is giving me such hope!  I have no excuses, the things that have been getting me down will now be fuel to get me to make permanent changes - not just flirt with them.

Today - eating!  That's what I'm getting under control.  Clean eating - 17DD-ish eating.  I still need one complex carb each day and my one coffee each morning to get me going, so I'm going to do Cycle 1, but keep those two things in my day (morning coffee with 1/2tsp sugar and 1T half&half), and one slice of sprouted grains bread to go with either my breakfast or lunch.

Water - the essence of life.  I'm going to drink it!  Like it's my job.......oh, right that will likely change my job a bit.....I'll be working from the loo as my bladder adjusts to drinking water again (kidding!).

Work stress management:  THIS IS A BIG ONE.  I will no longer take work stress home with me.  I don't mind putting in a little extra time as needed....and if the extra times = me going home without stressing over everything under the sun, then it will be nothing but a positive.

Exercise:  Back to the gym on Tuesday with my trainer.  I'm taking this weekend to get my spring garden clean up finished and then I'll be formally working out with her 3 days a week.

Stopping and smelling the roses - coffee on the porch in the morning as the sun comes up.  Sitting under the stars in the hot tub in the evening......all things that will be back into my world over the next few days!

Thanks for letting me share this here.....

Detox is a b***h - um, not my friend!

So in an effort to get to show on the road, so to speak, I've started cutting things out of my life.  With every good detox session, no matter how extreme it is, there are sometimes some less-than-desirable side effects.......I've cut out most carbs, all cr@p, and cut way back on caffiene (down to 1 per day from 2-5)........yup, I've got that dull, not quite, migraine thing going on.

So, I'm sucking it up - working through my day at the office and praying it will be over soon!  Unfortunately, it means I'm not going to the gym for another day....skipped yesterday because of my head....and today too.  Hoping to have my head in a better place, so to speak, tomorrow!

One day, one baby step at a time!

Another post about restarting yet again!

Have we ever seen a post like this before?  Yeah, like every month.....

I have to make changes now.  There is not options, I just have to do what needs to be done.  If I'm going to win the battle with Menière's, then being in the best physical shape (not just by working out, but by eating the right foods to fuel my body) is the only answer.

Back on track today.  I'm doing a clean-eating thing.  Mostly based on 17DD, but with a pet carb, and one all-dressed coffee to start my day.  Hey, I have to have something to get me rolling in the morning don't I?  I'm also back at the gym.  Five workouts per week, until the weather warms up anyway.  Nothing super difficult, but an hour dedicated to movement.  Yesterday was lower body.  Today and Wednesday are cardio days.  Tomorrow and Thursday will be upper and core.

Adding back in a LOT more water, and I should be good!

Wish me luck.....today truly is the first day of my life