Dreary Wednesday and Some Mind Clutter

I'm in "declutter" mode.....everywhere - at home, at the office.....so why not here too?


I feel like I'm in the middle of a great transition......like standing on the side of a cliff waiting for the next move......not sure whose move, exactly, but I'm standing here, patiently waiting. (no I'm not going to jump off!!!!! but might repel down?)


As I have mentioned before, I have a double life........I am an administrator at a university - I have big shoes to fill....lots of expectations and I find this part of my life very stimulating and satisfying. My alter-ego is a farm-wife/partner........although it's my partner's job to do the actual farming, I do the bookwork, the HR, and marketing for one of our offshoots - the corn/veggie business. While this is a dream come true for me on so many levels, it's quite honestly physically draining..........completely physically draining.....which brings me back to the cliff!


This year, for the first time ever......I can honestly say that I am so completely mentally and physically drained, that I have found it very difficult to come to my office and be productive. I'm doing what needs to be done, but my heart isn't into it. My heart is not into finishing off year-end for the farm(s) and turning the page on that either.



So, that's why I'm decluttering.........I have a lovely pad of paper that two sisters who worked at the veggie stand gave me this summer.....time to take off the wrapper. I'm going to make an office crap list, a farm office crap list, and most importantly a "me" crap list........and throw them off the cliff once I've checked my items off!



Two items that will STAY on my list is my workouts at the gym and eating clean foods....those are NOT going to be purged!

Bring on the Sunshine!

So, we tend to take the lovely days of summer, even Indian Summer, for granted. Well, after coming out of 5-6 days of straight dreary, rainy, cold days, this morning's sunshine is so welcome - even if I am in my office!

It makes me feel happy.....it's a hope that I can feel inside.......

Okay, back to the daily grind.

I packed an awesome lunch today - yesterday I pre-made chicken/turkey meatballs so that my DD and I can have them for our supper tonight as well as lunch tomorrow (for me anyway) - the guys are having roast beast, which neither she nor I care much for.

I brought my new awesome pink water bottle into the office today - and will wash out another new one (3-pack!) for the gym tonight.

I went to the gym yesterday and yet again did an incredible leg workout. Tonight after work, my DD and I are going to the gym - I'm dropping her off at her gym, and then going to do a cardio workout at mine.

I'm also going to start writing in my journal again today (see, Miss S, I told you I would!).....and tracking my moods, thoughts and other mind clutter....as well as my food intake.

The scale is stuck.....I have been partially responsible for this because of what went into my face yesterday while at MIL's. Moving on from that.........I am bound and determine to get healthier, feel better, and get stronger!

I want to leave 2011 as the year that "I finally got it!" and I still have some months to go to make that my reality.

Clean eating menu for today:
Coffee w/ 1tsp 1/2-1/2 and 1 tsp sugar (my one indulgence)
B 2 egg with evoo
S yogurt (yes, Miss S, it's FF!) and raspberries
L BAS and chicken meatballs
S celery & 2T hummus
D grilled veggies and more chicken meatballs

Water, water, water, and more water.....going to refill zee bottle right now.

Have an awesome Monday!

Amazing Leg Workout!!!! ....and the 17DD

Have I told all of you that I love my trainer? She makes working out fun......I laugh, I groan, sometimes I might utter bad words or call her nasty names....but she just R*O*C*K*S!

Yesterday - hmmmmm.....WI at the gym was a STS - guess that part rings true as it was a STS at home too. I can and will do better this week. (note to self - don't eat pizza.....especially not the night before WI).

Depending on how you look at it, I could say that I had the worst leg workout ever yesterday, but honestly, it was amazing! Wickedly challenging, amazing because - I AM GETTING STRONGER! My head was totally in the game yesterday....the bug I'd been getting over the past weeks seems to be gonzo (phew!).....and I was able to push, push, and push!

Felt like a million bucks as I made my way home!

Repeat of the same for me tomorrow!

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17DD update - I'm finally on cycle 2 - here's my menu for yesterday and today:

Tuesday:
WUD
Coffee (my one indulgence or I get a massive headache!)
B – Yogurt, raspberries, banana
S – BAS (big-@ssed salled) with some tuna – part 1
L – part 2 of S1
S – 10 almonds and protien shake (pre-workout)
D – grilled salmon and stir-fried veggies with EVOO
Lots of Water

Wednesday:
WUD
CoffeeB – 2 eggs, evoo, pico de gallo
S – banana
L – BAS with chicken breast
S – yogurt & berries
D – left-over salmon and veggies
Lots of water again!

I have to find something physical to do today............

Happy Thanksgiving....and a bit of mind clutter!

You know when you weigh yourself regularly and see the number on the scale slowly go down? Great, right? A fantastic feeling of accomplishment, reinforcement..........so, my home scale says 160.......six or seven months ago, it said 178 (or maybe even a bit more).....THAT was NOT great.

So, as I said, I'm back at the gym, watching what I eat, making wise choices for what goes into my mouth........and feeling like I'm wrestling back to being in control. Again, great. HOWEVER, with this new challenge I'm doing at the gym, I weigh in there on Tuesdays after work..........what I HATE is that this particular scale says 167.2. I know, weight fluctuates from morning to afternoon. I know that one scale won't necessarily say the same thing as the other. I also know that weighing nekkie first thing in the morning vs. at the end of a day sitting at my desk will skew things as well.......but it makes me sad......

So I'm turning the sad into mad and am going to make my gym scale go down.....down, down, and down some more.......not just the number that it says that I weight, but also the body fat index.......which is also NOT my friend.....yet, anyway.

So, turning negative energy into something positive is my focus for October!.....well, that and takin' the scales DOWN!

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It's Thanksgiving Day in Canada today......I'm at my office, trying to catch up on things....and taking a few moments for myself as well. Saturday was my daughter's 21st birthday celebration at our house - I cooked all day......it was great fun! Yesterday, we celebrated the end of harvest with our farm workers.....amen to the end of most of the farm work for this season.

I'm thankful for my kids (all of my kids!), I'm thankful for my health, and I'm very thankful for my DSO. I'm grateful every day that I live on a farm in one of the most beautiful parts of the country......and that this country we live in is nurturing and caring.

Happy Thanksgiving!